2010

So I'm like 15 days late on this, but damn I'm a busy girl ya know... But here's the gist...

THIS IS WHAT I'VE LEARNED IN 2010...

1. Friends with benefits never works. Quite frankly what happens to the friendship when the benefits run out. Guys can never get past the fact that they've seen you naked. I sit here and wonder why can't guys still be your best friend even though they've done the hibbity dibbity with you? Just because you call & wonder if they're ok, they think that it's an invitation to come over & rock your world. They also think that they can just call you anytime just because they want you to rock THEIR world. Boys do not know how to separate the two. So basically the friendship disappears & you've ruined yet another friendship. Might as well have dated & broke each others hearts.
2. There is no such thing as a NO STRINGS ATTACHED relationship. Eventually it creates feelings. You wonder why this guy doesn't want to know more about you. I figure I'm intelligent. There must be some sort of attraction otherwise you wouldn't be calling (texting) each other every weekend. But then some creepy little troll enters your thoughts & you wonder "WHY NOT MORE". And you create this effed up thinking that maybe if you try to get more out of him (like his last night name or you call each other when you're actually sober, that maybe something more will happen). This does not happen. I thought that I could be the NO STRINGS ATTACHED kind of girl, but my insecurities always get the best of me.
3. What happens in the sheets is very important. You can have a great relationship but if there's no chemistry in between the sheets, quite frankly it's going to effect every part of the relationship. Enough said.
4. I was a great wife. I make a great girlfriend. But if you stick me somewhere in the middle, you're bound to get walked all over.
5. Friendships can pick right back up when you've been without each other for 7+ years & you realize what's been missing from your life. ( That's YOU Layla)
6. I don't have a NUMBER 1 best friend. Is there really a reason to put your friends in numerical order? It's like there's a race to who is a better person because they give you what you need. All my besties are my besties for a reason. And yes they all serve a different purpose. Just as I'm sure i serve a purpose in their lives. Would I do everything within me to help them, listen to them & love them. YES I WOULD. And would they do the same for me? I would bet my life on it.
7. I have a huge capacity to love. I think I love everyone first then hate them later. And even then I don't hate them. I just love them too much & they don't return the favor.
8. You can have the most amazing 4 days with someone and it never means as much to them as it does to you. The chemistry is there in every way, but sometimes you're just not the ONE. (There will always be a special place in my heart for this person & I'll always wonder why I wasn't the ONE)
9. I truly love my life. I was miserable for a very long time. I have the most amazing people in my life from my parents to my friends to my sister from a different mister (Cinnamon). They brighten my days & they inspire me to be a better person to make them proud.
10. I have a lot of goals. And even though I'm 30; I intend to reach each & every one of them.

SO NOW... IF NONE OF THIS MADE SENSE PLEASE REALIZE I'M A BIT INTOXICATED.

xoxo
Michele