That I think like a guy. I'm pretty sure I know where this stems from. And let me start off by saying that I don't think that I'm wrong because guys have been doing the same shit for years. I realize that it's not right for them to do so I shouldn't think that it's ok for me to do it.
So yes.. I do treat guys like they're only good for one thing. And that's usually for my personal satisfaction. Because quite frankly that's usually what I am to them. I'm not looking for a relationship (like I thought I wanted), I don't want some guy that I need to tell my every move to and I certainly don't want some guy that I have to justify my actions to. I like to drink and I like to have fun. I think that I have every right to. I was in a 7 year relationship that hindered the real me. So if I want to get drunk & take a guy home then I have every right to. And more often than not I wouldn't mind if he were gone within the first 10 minutes of me waking up. I don't want to entertain them or talk to them about what I'm going to do with the rest of my day, I'm not going to cook them breakfast and I don't want to go anywhere with them later that day.
I am aware of what kind of girl this makes me sound like but trust me I'm not that bad. There are a lot of people that would agree that my "numbers" aren't that high at all. All I'm saying is that I don't want to cozy with some guy. We all have needs and those are my needs that my girl friends can't meet.
With that being said, that is why I don't want to get into a relationship. I have some of the most amazing friends. Most of them have with me for the last 10 years and no they're not all girls. If all I want is a gigantic hug because I'm having a bad day I have a guy friend that I can call. If I just want to bitch and vent I have people to call for that. If something amazing happens and I'm just so excited I have friends to call for that. And almost anything a guy can do I know people for that too, for example; lifting really heavy stuff. I've got that covered. So yes, unless I call a guy a friend I like to either make them that way and/or keep them that way because otherwise you're just a tool.
xoxo
Saturday, October 9, 2010
Rule #2
So now rule #2.... Deny, deny, deny.
This does not necessarily mean lie. But if you act like it didn't happen then who is to say that it did? For me this rule is sort of backwards. Most people would say that you should deny it all. Kinda like cheating per se. For me this rule means to deny any feelings you may have. Whatever they might be. If I really like someone I might tell everyone that I think he's cool. If I'm in love with someone then I'd just straight up say that I like him a lot. I don't like to admit when I love someone, well because I easily could love someone. But being IN love with someone is whole different thing. It's easy for me to fall in love with someone, but I fall out of love just as easily.
I'm a truthful girl with a wandering eye. If I'm seeing someone & I hook up with someone else then I always come clean about it. This is because I don't like secrets & I feel terrible about whispering behind someones back. I wouldn't want someone to make a joke out of my feelings so I won't do that to someone else. I will though keep details out of what I really done. There's no reason to cause anyone more "pain" than necessary.
So deny deny deny is more like lie lie lie. And I'm not as good a liar as I used to be. I can't put on a straight face and feed someone bullshit. But what I can do is make up a portion of the truth and mix it with something that makes the other person feel warm & fuzzy. This is part of me growing up. I don't like to hurt peoples feelings the way that I used to. Before I could lie straight to your face and if the occasion required it I could cry on cue. But now I just don't like to see people hurt and the only reason I can come up with is because I know I've hurt A LOT of people in my past and I'm just waiting for karma to bitch slap me.
DENY DENY DENY was a rule created not by me, but this is just my interpretation of it.
xoxoxo
This does not necessarily mean lie. But if you act like it didn't happen then who is to say that it did? For me this rule is sort of backwards. Most people would say that you should deny it all. Kinda like cheating per se. For me this rule means to deny any feelings you may have. Whatever they might be. If I really like someone I might tell everyone that I think he's cool. If I'm in love with someone then I'd just straight up say that I like him a lot. I don't like to admit when I love someone, well because I easily could love someone. But being IN love with someone is whole different thing. It's easy for me to fall in love with someone, but I fall out of love just as easily.
I'm a truthful girl with a wandering eye. If I'm seeing someone & I hook up with someone else then I always come clean about it. This is because I don't like secrets & I feel terrible about whispering behind someones back. I wouldn't want someone to make a joke out of my feelings so I won't do that to someone else. I will though keep details out of what I really done. There's no reason to cause anyone more "pain" than necessary.
So deny deny deny is more like lie lie lie. And I'm not as good a liar as I used to be. I can't put on a straight face and feed someone bullshit. But what I can do is make up a portion of the truth and mix it with something that makes the other person feel warm & fuzzy. This is part of me growing up. I don't like to hurt peoples feelings the way that I used to. Before I could lie straight to your face and if the occasion required it I could cry on cue. But now I just don't like to see people hurt and the only reason I can come up with is because I know I've hurt A LOT of people in my past and I'm just waiting for karma to bitch slap me.
DENY DENY DENY was a rule created not by me, but this is just my interpretation of it.
xoxoxo
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