I'm so angry about so many things these days & it upsets me that I feel this way. I don't like being mean. I don't like people who play like they're the victim when they're the ones who have hurt & lied to others. I don't want to be angry about those people who take advantage of the kindness that I've shown them.
But I am angry about it. How can someone just lie over & over again and make everyone think that I'm the bitch in the situation? I didn't just decide overnight that this person doesn't deserve to be treated with respect. She lied to me, she lied to my best friend, she's cheated continuously on her boyfriend & I see her taking advantage of someone that I care for very much. But she's making it seem as though I'm the one being childish. Like I'm the who has no reason to be upset. And like she's the victim in all of this. After we invited her into our home & into our lives. Showed her kindness like we would any other person we care about. Only for her to shit all over friendship, prove she's a liar & a manipulator. Told me that I should dump the guy I was seeing because according to her, he treated me like shit. Then to turn around & be all buddy buddy with him & tell him that he's amazing. Yeah I knew he was amazing too, but after HER convincing I started to think differently.
Like I said I don't want to be angry about this. That's not who I am anymore. I want to live my life surrounded by love, friendship that outlasts time & space, and genuine people. My heart is not happy by what I'm feeling inside. I'm hurt. I feel used. And I feel like it isn't fair that nobody sees this person for what she is.
I only pray that I can be a better person. I know in my heart that I'm better than this. That there is a greater person that I can be. My friends & family are dear to my heart & anyone who knows me that all have an open invitation to be part of that.
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